I fought, I surrendered; I cried, I laughed; I fell asleep, I woke up from a dream; I prayed, I disbelieved; I forgave, I was forgiven; I hated, I loved; I screamed, I made silence; I feared, I challenged; I ate, I vomited; I got sick, I recovered; I got hurt, I healed; I took, I gave; I drank, I spit; I remained, I fled; I followed, I led; I came, I left; I learnt, I forgot; I grieved, and raged; I lost, I won; I punched, I kicked; I cooled, I heated; I saw red, and blue; I accepted, and refuted; I smiled, and I frowned; I was nervous, I was calm; then I waited, and I waited...

But it didn't matter, because you weren't there at all.